Endometrial Biopsy

So I had the biopsy done today and to be honest it hurt. Badly.

It was the worst feeling ever. The biopsy lasted all of five minutes but it was the worst five minutes. I could literally feel my doctor scraping my uterus. I asked him what he was looking for and he basically just said he was looking to see how my lining was at this point in my cycle. I guess we will see what he finds. I had to take my first Lupron shot today and then I also have to take my first Metformin pill tonight. I've heard mixed reviews about Met, some say you get stomach issues other are fine with it so we shall see.

I feel so much more prepared this time around. I feel like I know what to expect with each step and that makes me feel at ease. Now I have to wait for my lovely period to show up so we can start the stimulation meds.

Are we having fun yet?!

Just An Update

I'm still taking the birth control pills and things are moving slowly for right now. I go on the 26th for the biopsy which I've heard mixed reviews about. Some have said it doesn't hurt others it does. I guess I will find out when I go on Monday. As of right now that's all I got going on. I will post more once I go for the biopsy.

IVF#2 Is Going To Be This Month!

To be honest, I didn't think we'd be able to pull it off. With us being very tight on cash I didn't see it happening anytime soon. We thought maybe October but couldn't nail down an exact month. Dan and I sat down last night and talked it over and cut some corners and came to the conclusion that we would be able to pull it off for this month. Needless to say I was extremely grateful and beyond excited. I called my doctor this morning and the plan is set in motion. I have to take birth control pills from now until the 26th. I go to the doctors on the 26th for that biopsy that I was suppose to have done two months ago and then I will start all the drugs. The tentative date for the retrieval is August 13th.


I seriously cannot believe that we are able to do this. I feel so lucky that we were able to work all of this out. I feel more comfortable about the whole process as well. I know what to expect every step of the way from the shots to the retrieval. I have a great support system both at home and at my doctors office that I have complete faith that it will work this time. I just know it will.

I know it's been a while

I just haven't really felt like writing much. Our second IVF is on hold until August or September. Right now money is playing a huge part into taking that next step. Between co-pays and the cost for the medicine right now it's a little much. We are currently trying on our own still because hey stranger things have happened. I actually got a psychic reading from someone regarding when I will have children and this is what she had to say:

BOY - JUNE so this is either birth month, conceive month or the month you find out in

When it comes to your son, they show him as "Mr. Sports". I think that you will find him to be really athletic.
I think that he will be the type of person who is going to excel in pretty much anything that he tries. He really pushes himself hard to succeed and is always going to be the one that is good with physical fitness. I think that you are going to find him always interested in working out.

You are going to find him with his friends. He's always a social guy and just likes to hang out. He's really into video games and prefers the ones that are all actions and good graphics. You will find him knowing how to have a good time and is not the type of child that will sit off on the side lines and "cry" or "whine" about anything. If he does not like something, he is the type that will go and change it, and if it can't be changed, he either lives with it and keeps moving forward or he tries to find a way to make it better and easier for him to deal with.

He's someone who does not like gossip and would rather not talk about his "feelings." He tends to keep things like that to himself and deals with it in his own way. You might find him to bounce ideas off you and get your feedback but he is someone who is not really going to share what his decision is until he's made it up his mind and its already said and done. He is very strong willed, and has amazing determination and is not one to veer far from his path or goals.

They show him starting to work in a beer/wine type store when he gets out of high school as a way to go into college. They show him linked to working in a trades field and earns good money after he gets out of school.

When it comes to career paths, they show him linked to being like a welder.

When it comes to marriage I am seeing him closer to 28. They will have one girl and one boy of their own.


When I first read it I was like wow, so much of that is like Dan and it's even funnier that it said June for the conceive month seeing as how we are trying on our own. If it's true I swear I will die wake up and then die again. You never know though like I said weirder shit has happened.

Getting In Shape, Italy and Waiting.

So I sat down a few days ago and had a very long talk with myself and I've come to the conclusion that I really hate being over weight. Don't get me wrong I'm not huge but I'm not happy in my body. I kept using the excuse that I might get pregnant this month, I can't start a work out routine if I'm pregnant. You get the point. It was just a downward spiral into eating whatever I wanted. It also has to do with the fact that yes I was depressed about not getting pregnant the first six IUI's or the first IVF but I do have faith that I will get pregnant the next cycle or the fourth.

My next step is to have an endometrial biopsy done ,basically they are doing that because I had a failed IVF cycle and want to check to make sure I don't have cancer or a luteal phase defect. The procedure is really easy so I'm not too worried about it. Now if the doctor would just call me back to tell me when this is going to happen.

Dan and I finally decided on where to stay while we are in Florence. We are actually going to rent an apartment while we are there for five days. I happen to come across this website while in my search and found the best prices and apartments. Below are the pictures of the room we reserved.

I love this place, it's really so beautiful. I'm really so happy I found it. The lady who I have been emailing with is also very nice as well. I'm just waiting for Dan to sign off on the contract and we are good to go.

I Love Italia!

That's right. LOVE IT. I've never been there but as of today Dan and I are saving for a trip coming November 2011. I know it's a very long time away but hello it's Italy!

I have to admit, I am the guru of Google lol. Why might you ask? Let me tell you. I found Dan and I a hotel plus airfare for six nights in Florence for a total of.......wait for it.......1675 dollars. That's right people you heard it. Just in case you didn't know that's *One THOUSAND six hundred seventy five dollars.* Now, any of you who know me know I'm not about to go to some hostel and relax for six days oh no. We are talking a four star hotel right in the center of the city, shopping, dining, art, the 17 foot David made out of marble. The whole nine. Now I know what you're thinking "What if I have a baby, what if this, what if that, who does she think she is" I get it. I totally get it. Honestly, I just don't care what people think. Italy has been a place that I've dreamt about over and over again. Dan will be running a marathon in Florence when we are there, he's actually the reason why we are even going in the first place.

Since we've talked about said trip I have been obsessed with the idea of going. "What am I going to wear, is November a good time to go, How many scoops of gelato can I have in six days." You get the point. Really my main concern is what I will be wearing. You have to understand Italy is the fashion capital of the world. Italian women look amazing without it seeming like it took a lot of effort. No sneakers, no jeans. I can deal with the no sneakers but c'mon no jeans? I know you can buy the trouser type jean which is fine. I just don't want to stick out like "the ugly american" from what I've read from a lot of travelers as well as Italian women they suggest you bring with you black pants/slacks, a good pair of walking shoes, jacket (rain, blazer), a dress, tops/t-shirts. They say to wear something fitted to your body but not tight, if you wear baggy or loose clothing you are looked down upon. When I say loose I mean to where your butt is sagging in the pants you have one. What I also find funny is that Italian women do not wear nail polish unless it's for a special occasion, that's another way for them to know you are not from there.

Just the thought of being in Italy with Dan makes me smile from ear to ear. Besides the fact it will probably be the most romantic place we've ever been it's ITALY. I don't think I can stress that enough. Let's also not forget that the Gucci outlet is there as well *insert evil smile here* from what I've read the items there are very discounted from the retail price. I can see myself now, walking away with a nice pair of Gucci loafers or a new purse. I think we may need to bring a lot of suitcases.

Italy for me has always been a place I never thought I'd be able to see but now that we've really been talking about it and saying how we need to start making an itinerary of all the things we'd like to visit it seems like it's really going to happen. There are tons of things to do in Florence the itinerary I have in my head already goes a little something like this:

Piazza San Giovanni & The Cathedral.

Ponte Vecchio

Duomo

Boboli Gardens

Uffizi Gallery

Leaning Tower of Pisca

The rest of time I'd love to just explore the city on our own. Eat at a trattoria that's tucked away on a side street. Visit Fiesole which is a town right above Florence. I want things planned but not too planned if that makes any sense. I guess I should start brushing up on my Italian.

It's Been A Long Time

I feel like I needed some time away from blogging just to get my head right, work out my emotions and move on. I feel like I'm ready to jump in the saddle again and start typing away.

Nothing much has really been going on. I had my follow up visit with my doctor on April 12th and we are going to do the same protocol and just add two-three more days of the stimulation medicine which is what I felt should have happened the first time around but what can you do. We are going to start treatments again in May or June. I wanted some time off to let my body get back to normal.

On another note, I booked a photo session with my cousin who is a FANTASTIC photographer. I'm doing the shoot with my best friend and cousin. We are going to do the shoot in Manhattan NY. I'm really excited to do now I just need something to wear.