5 Day Transfer!

So I had to call my lab today to find out if my transfer was going to be a three day which would have been today or a five day which will be Tuesday. Lucky for me, my transfer will be on Tuesday. Out of the nine, we still have seven that are really going strong. I honestly couldn't be happier with my cycle. I'm hoping the good news just keeps on coming

So I had the retrieval

Andddddddddd we got 17 eggs! For me that's fantastic! My RE called this morning and out of the 17, 9 fertilized! couldn't be happier with those numbers. I have to call them on Sunday and see when my transfer will be. If it's a three day transfer it will be Sunday and if it's a five day transfer it will be Tuesday. Either one I will be happy with. I will keep everyone posted as I find out more on Sunday.

Had The Trail Transfer Today

So today went well, had the transfer and everything went very smoothly which is always fantastic.

One thing I like about my new RE is that they monitor you very closely whereas my old RE I went in once every four or five days. My new RE wants me there basically every other day which is very comforting to me. I feel my new RE really is in the business of getting me pregnant where my old RE seemed like he just wanted to be my friend. As far as my schedule goes I got a little more in depth information today at my appointment. Basically, I stopped taking the birth control yesterday, I go in Friday for blood work and ultra sound and then start the stimulation medicine Saturday. The week of the 29th will be my egg retrieval and then three or five days later the transfer. I can't believe how quickly it's going.

We're On Our Way

So I got my IVF schedule on Friday and I have to say that this is the quickest cycle I will do here's the rundown:

17th-Trial Embryo Transfer

20th-Start Stims

31st-2nd- Egg Retrieval

5th or 7th- Transfer

I feel like I'm not ready for this cycle, that it's just coming up so fast but maybe that's a good thing. I'm trying not to get too freaked out about it. I've been listening to my meditation cd's which I feel like they are helping. I've cut out all caffeine and I've really been watching what I've been eating. I don't want to look back at this cycle and think I didn't do everything in my power to make it a successful one.

I will update again on the 17th after the trail transfer

The Journey Begins

So, AF showed yesterday and that means IVF #3 is on it's way. I get to call my RE tomorrow and schedule my day 3 work up and then go from there. Like I said at first it's a slow process starting with birth control and then moving on from there so as of right now we just sit and wait.

But on another note, I got to take some awesome pictures of my dog over the weekend and wanted to share a couple, here they are:

Waiting

I'm just waiting for my period to show her ugly face so that we can get this show one the road. Once I get it I go in for a three day work up which means blood work and an ultrasound. After that I start birth control and then on to the stims.

Right now the process is slow so I don't have much to report. I also ordered a St. Gerard necklace because honestly it can't hurt and I feel like it will do me some good. Now if you don't know St. Gerard is the patron saint of motherhood. They say you should pray to him if you are looking to conceive a child, for a safe delivery or for a sick child. For me this is the first time praying to him and at first I was on the fence about it since I'm not big into religion but over the last few nights I find myself talking to him like he was an old friend, explaining to him our situation, telling him what great parents we would make and whatnot. I really feel connected in a way. I feel like when I lay my head down and "get to talking" someone is listening. Maybe I'm in a better place than I was a year ago or maybe I'm starting to embrace my catholic up bringing but whatever it is I like it.

I may even go to church.

Maybe

We are back from vacation!

We had such a fantastic time in Mexico.

Here are some pictures from our trip. This is a resort I would go back to in a heartbeat.

FYI, We stayed at the Excellence Riviera Cancun

Hello Again

So here we are...

I figured I would start to blog again seeing as how we will be moving forward with another IVF come August. I really haven't felt the need to blog about our journey since we haven't done anything for almost a year. Actually August will be one year since our last IVF and we all know how that ended. Over the last few months I've been on the fence about IVF. I have inner turmoil about it to be honest. I want to do it, I don't, I do, I don't. It sometimes feels like a never ending battle between my head and heart. I feel I'm in a better place now then I was a year ago. I feel like so many things have changed. I've lost 30 pounds, I have a great job, Dan and I's marriage is better than it has ever been, and the biggest one of all is we switched doctors.

I feel that my new doctor can get me what I want, I know that sounds kind of I don't know weird to phrase it that way but I'm looking at getting pregnant as a business. They are selling a service that I am buying so my attitude now is "it's nothing personal it's business." That's what I told my old doctor when I informed him I was leaving his practice. I needed to get a second opinion, if I didn't I would have just sat there and wondered "what if" I hate what ifs. I didn't want to go through another cycle with my old RE and wonder if someone else could have done something different and then God forbid it didn't work I would have kicked myself in the ass for not seeing someone new. The new place is far from our house (about 40 minutes) but you have to do what you have to do. I think I can deal with getting up an hour earlier if the end result is a beautiful baby.

I am also going to try new methods of relaxing, I've purchased some meditation cd's that are geared towards IVF, I've also cut out all the drama in my life. I let go of a lot of feelings that were bringing me down about past friendships, relationships and just bad feelings in general. I'm really going to try to be as positive as I can about this new cycle. I figure new me, new doctor, new attitude.

Dan and I are also taking a vacation. Next week we will be in sunny Mexico for five lovely days. Our anniversary is next Wednesday and we both wanted to get away and relax so we are headed back to Mexico. I really couldn't be happier with where we are right now as a couple. We talked about going through IVF again and I said to him that he needs to be apart of the cycle 100%. Last cycle, I will admit it was all me. I was going to the doctor myself, doing the shots myself (not that I would want him to give them to me anyway) but you get my point. I felt that I was going through it alone and that was a really shitty feeling. This time around I know he will be there 150%, does he get how it feels to go through what I go through, no. He does however understand now how emotionally taxing it is on me. That if I'm in a bad/sad/happy/angry/loving mood it really all depends on the medicine and how I'm feeling on that day.

I feel that this cycle will be...dare I say it. The cycle.

I feel it, I feel it deep down. I feel that I've "paid my dues" and now it's my turn.

It's been so long

I can't believe that I haven't posted anything in over two months. I guess life just gets in the way sometimes, but isn't that always the case?

So here's my update. Still not pregnant (no shocker there), work is going fantastic I'm really happy to be working for such a great company and I have also met some pretty awesome people that I'm happy to call them my friends, The hubby is fantastic as well (Today is his 30th birthday!) he actually just ran his first full marathon all 26.2 miles of it, I really couldn't be more proud of him. The puppy is good, she's still crazy as ever but I really don't expect anything less from her lol.

Probably the biggest update I have is that I've lost 20 pounds since January. I'm so ridiculously proud of myself I can't even stand it lol. I've been on Nutrisystem and I love it. The food is actually really good, I thought I was going to hate it but it's not bad at all. Don't get me wrong there are days when I want nothing but French fries and pizza but I know in the end it won't do me any good to go back to eating that way.

As far as the whole pregnant thing we are still on a break. It's a welcomed break to be honest, I feel like I'm myself again. There are times that of course I wish things were different or I get angry or sad but it's to be expected. Right now we are discussing going to another doctor for our next IVF which I'm completely fine with. The problem is the new doctor is 40 minutes from our house. So that means we would have to drive 40 mins there, 40 mins back to our house and work is an additional hour from there. So a lot of driving and a very long day. In the end you have to do what you have to do. Also, if we switched we'd have to wait until December to start again so that we have all of our personal time from work available. I guess for me it's the whole waiting until December. The last time we did an IVF cycle was August so we'd be waiting over a year to do it again.

The whole thing makes me feel so overwhelmed to be honest. I wish things were easier for us, I wish I was able to get pregnant on my own and not have to worry about all of this but unfortunately it's not in my cards. The only thing I can do is take it one dat at a time and hope for the best.

New Year, New Me

So 2010 wasn't a bad year but it wasn't a great year. I feel that 2011 so far has been pretty good to me. I got a new job, I started Nutrisystem and I got an awesome new camera.

We are taking some time off from fertility treatments only because...well, I need a break. I need a break to feel like myself again, to remember the things I love and to explore new things in life. I recently just got a new camera (Nikon D3100) and I'm completely in love with it. I've always loved photography but since getting the camera my love has grown ten fold. I find that I always want to carry my camera with me or I'm spending hours upon hours searching things on the internet trying to learn as much as possible. I've even signed up for a photography class which I'm really excited about. I really think 2011 will be a fantastic year.