Follistim & Menopur

So I started my stimulation meds today. Follistim I had no problem with since I've taken it in the past. Menopur is a new one for me. I gotta admit it was really easy to mix everything and looking at the needle I thought no problem I can handle this. I cleaned a part of my stomach, squeezed it as hard as I could went to put the needle it and to my surprise it really fucking hurt. I was so shocked at the pain that I actually stood there for a minute without injecting myself with the meds. Finally I snapped out of it and pushed the plunger in and felt the liquid go into my stomach. Not a great feeling. Dan stood by watching the whole ordeal and all he kept asking was "does it hurt, does it hurt" of course it fucking hurts. I'm sticking myself with a goddamn needle.

I probably could have broke down and cried right then but I didn't. I just took a deep breath and said to myself that I could do this, that it's all worth it in the end. Which is the truth. It is worth it in the end but that doesn't mean at that moment in time I wasn't hating life. I'm still feeling really positive about this cycle. I go back to the doctor on Monday for another ultrasound and blood work and they will either tell me to up my dosage or keep it the same.

Hopefully everything is on track so we can just keep this process going.

Let The Stimulation Begin

So I went to the doctor today and everything looks good to start the stim meds. I have to take two different drugs called Follistim and Menopur. I start them on Friday with 150 units for both. I then have to go back on Monday for another ultrasound and blood work to see how my body is reacting to the drugs. I still can't believe how fast this is all happening. I'm really excited to see what our end result will be.

Also there is only 14 more hours until I turn 30. When did that happen? I can remember turning 18 thinking I couldn't wait until I was 21 then turning 21 and never wanting to be any older but now that I'm going to be 30 I think it won't be so bad. Last weekend I had a spa day and lunch with some friends and family and I remember sitting back looking at the table of women before me thinking if this is what 30 will be like I'm completely okay with it.

On a bad note we're suppose to have a tons of snow tomorrow into Friday. I'm going to try and not let it ruin my good mood.

Why Yes, I Did Get My Period.

I don't think I've ever been this happy to get something that I've spent so much time praying wouldn't come. This just means we are that much closer in hoping IVF gives us our baby. I call my doctor tomorrow and will set up an appointment for three days later to have blood work done. If the blood work comes back that everything is on the up and up we will start the stimulation medicine on the 25th. I will post more once I speak with my doctors office.

Just Checking In

So nothing much has been going on. I'm so very happy to report that I only had the headache that one day and that was it. I've been on Lupron for the last five days and have had no side effects since that first headache so right now we are just coasting until I start the stimulation meds.

I'm really looking forward to this weekend. My birthday is coming up so my best girlfriends/cousins are getting together for a spa day and a great lunch. I have been looking forward to a massage since we first started talking about it well over a month ago. My lower back will thank me

Shut The F*ck Up And Stop Whining Before I Punch You In The F*cking Face Volume 2

In the first volume of Shut The Fuck Up And Stop Whining Before I Punch You In The Fucking Face, I discussed the importance of time management. Reading it back, I have decided that I am unhappy with the use of the word volume. A more proper word, in my esteemed opinion, is installment. However, I cannot change Volume 2 to Installment 2 because Volume 1 must remain Volume 1. Due to my compulsive need for this to match up. I simply cannot have the words installment and volume scattered about in the same series. I fully understand that I have the ability to go back and edit the first installment of Shut The Fuck Up And Stop Whining Before I Punch You In The Fucking Face. Replacing Volume 1 with Installment 1 would be really easy but, I am fucking lazy. I don't feel like taking 30 fucking seconds out of my day to make that correction, which raises the next topic.

It could be said that laziness is a plague on society. It is a plague of which I, begrudgingly admit, sometimes suffer from. Laziness can be split into two categories. The first category is Sporadic Laziness. I feel that this type best describes me. I feel that after a full five day work week , working at work, working at home, working on shit on Saturday afternoons and drinking on Saturday evenings entitles me to a bit of laziness on fucking Sunday. If you too fall under the category of Sporadic Laziness, and you find that others often bust your balls about lounging around one day out of the fucking week in your fucking panties, then do what I do. Say, "Fuck off, you fucking fuck." Don't stand for their incessant whining. Don't allow them to bark orders at you. Crack open a beer, pour yourself some scotch or whatever the fuck it is that you like and say, "Hey, bitch face, get the fuck out of my face before I punch you in the fucking kidney"

The second category of laziness is Chronic Lack of Motivation, also knows as Good For Nothing Lazy Ass Mother Fucker Syndrome. Good For Nothing Lazy Ass Mother Fucker Syndrome can and does directly coincide with lack of time management skills. If you can recall, I stated in the previous installment of Shut The Fuck Up And Stop Whining Before I Punch You In The Fucking Face that tardiness and absenteeism are harshly frowned upon. When my plans get postponed or cancelled due to Good For Nothing Lazy Ass Mother Fucker Syndrome, heads start rolling. Horse Heads. Peoples Heads. Heads. Heads. Heads. I'm totally "Queen Of Heart" like that.

The characteristics of category two laziness is as followed:

-You are too un-fucking-motived to scratch your own ass.

Reading back, I noticed that in the second paragraph, I implied that I am only lazy one day out of the week that day, being Sunday. In the first paragraph, I stated that I am too lazy to go back and replace Volume 1 for Installment 1, which blatantly disprove my statement in the second paragraph, for today is not Sunday, but Saturday. I am making a mention of this because I know some asshole is going read this and say "Hey she's a fucking liar" to which I would have to say "Fuck you. Who's blog is this?" And then a juvenile war of words would ensue, which I would ultimately claim victory.

Things That Make Me Happy

• Doing everything with flair and a sense of fantasy
• Waking up naturally (no alarm)
• Irish soda on St. Patrick's Day
• A big bag of Hershey's Kisses
• Taking piano lessons and never practicing
• Infatuation
• The Sundance Film Festival
• Spas
• Playing your cards right
• Boeing 727s and 747s
• The one person you dress up for
• Men's cashmere V-necks
• The Parker House Hotel in Boston
• Open-minded uncertainty
• Earth-toned, rustic linens for warmth in fall or winter
• Saying yes
• The ring of the telephone
• Seedless grapes in sour cream and brown sugar
• Making love
• People who understand there's a lot to you
• Pomegranates
• American Express cards
• Snowboarding in Maine
• Fleet Street, London
• Peru's Machu Picchu
• Someone loving the smell of your skin
• Boccie Balls
• The retort "Don't make me laugh"
• Uproarious laughter that must be forcibly stopped due to its inappropriateness in a situation
• Bangs
• The silence of close friendship
• Fantod=nervous movements
• Caller ID
• Writing the phone number from the answering machine message correctly in just one listen
• A really good hamburger
• An irresistible party mood
• Chocolate milkshakes
• Speeding through caution lights
• Having someone make you laugh when things are tough
• Fall fashions
• The position of your head as you bite into a taco
• Being rowdy
• Standing out in a crowd
• A smile you wear all over
• Acting goofy
• Pick-me-ups
• Thai food
• Playing poker
• No turning back situations
• Tattoos
• Startling clarity at 4am
• Creme Brulee

A Girls Prayer

Shall We Pray...

Armani

Which art in Nordstrom

Hallowed be thy shoes.

Thy Prada come

Thy shopping done

On Rodeo

As it is in Paris

Give us this day, our Visa Gold,

And forgive us our balances

As we forgive those who charge us interest.

Lead us not into Penney's

And deliver us from Sears.

For this is the Chanel, Gaultier, Dior, Gucci, Hermes, Louis Vuitton,

And

The Versace...

For Dolce and Gabbana....Amex

First Lupron Shot Down,Tons To Go

So I took my first shot this morning. It wasn't bad at all, I didn't even feel it to be honest which is great since I will have to take 1,000,000,000,000 more shots in the next month. I've tried to stay away from reading what the side effects will be because honestly I'm the type of person that the minute I read/hear someone say something about a certain medicine I'm taking I automatically get that symptom. Like I read that Lupron gives you headaches I now feel like I'm starting to get a headache. It could very well be from the meds but I just think I had a headache to begin with. I guess I will see over the next few days if I have any symptoms.

Injection Class and Protocol

My injection class was great. I'm so happy I only have one needle that's huge and I only have to do it once, other than that we are ready to go. I finally got my protocol and here's what we are working with:

2/12- Blood work to see if I ovulated

2/13- Start Lupron. Lupron acts by suppressing the pituitary gland which is normally responsible for triggering ovulation.

2/22- Period should arrive.

2/25-Call office for an appointment for blood work and start stimulation meds.

3/6- Start antibiotics

3/6- Take HCG Shot

3/8- Egg Retrieval

3/8- Start Progesterone

3/9- Fertilization Report

3/12-Embryo Transfer

3/19- Blood work to check Progesterone

3/25- Blood test to check for pregnancy

Wow!

I can't believe we are finally here. I finally feel like this is really happening. We've waited so long for this and now that it's here I can't believe it. Now just for the blood work on Friday and we are on our way.

Another Snow Storm

Really, again with this shit. We got over two feet of snow. I don't think I can take any more snow storms this year.

I'm ready to pack up and call it quits. I'm thinking somewhere warmish like Arizona. I can deal with Arizona yea it may be a little hot during the summer but I'll take hot over this bullshit any day.
I can't believe that spring is one month and two weeks away (not like I'm counting or anything) I'm so ready for the warmer weather.

Your Baby Can Read!

I love those fucking commercials, I mean it makes me want to go and buy this shit and I don't even have any kids yet. I've read some reviews on it and it seems like a lot of people are against it. "Let your child develop naturally" is what everyone is saying but fuck it. If parents want their kid to learn/memorize then by all means it's their business and their child. I just really enjoy the commercials.

Anyway, I really want to share one of my favorite websites. It's call Anti Duckface. It's seriously hands down the funniest fucking website I've seen in a long time. It makes fun of guys/girls making that god awful kissy face people do in pictures. You can check it out at www.antiduckface.com trust me when I say you will love it.

So I think my weekend plans are going to be completely messed up. We are suppose to have another huge snow storm Friday into Saturday and if it's anything like the last one my ass will be stuck inside for the whole weekend and we all know how that makes me feel. I don't even want to think about it right now or else I'll just be in a pissy mood before I go to sleep.

Speaking of sleep I love love love love love love love Tylenol for making Simply Sleep. It knocks me out without feeling like I have a hangover the next morning. I also love the feeling you get right before you fall asleep. For me I start to get all giddy and silly. That's how I know it's time to go to bed and that's exactly where I'm headed.

I'm Ready For My Fix

Holy fuck is the first thing I thought about when I saw this.

My second thought was I can't do this, that it's so overwhelming. All the meds you have to take, when to take them, how much you have to take. It's a lot to deal with. Thank God I have a great doctor/ nurses and also a great support system from my family and friends. I really don't know what I would do without them.

I gotta admit though, the needles scare the fuck out of me. They are huge, I can deal with needles in my stomach but when you pull a needle out and its the length of your finger you kinda wanna throw up. I'm really very hopefully about this whole procedure. I know IVF works and I know it will work for me.

Now for the injection class on the 9th and we are ready to go.

SHG Done!

So I had my SHG done today and everything was all clear! I'm so beyond excited about it. This was the last test before I start IVF. I have to go back to my doctors on the 9th for an injection class and then again on the 11th to get some blood work done and if my blood work comes back that I ovulated I start my first IVF cycle. I can't believe it's finally here, I feel like I've been waiting forever for this time to be here and now that it is I feel like a kid on Christmas.

Dan actually came with me to the doctor today which I'm really glad he was there. It means a lot to me that he was supporting me through the test. Afterward we spoke with my IVF coordinator, signed the paper work and handed over that lovely check and now we are on our way. The only thing left to do is get my protocol about how much drugs I should take and when and thats it. I will post more when I get my protocol.